Life Updates

I missed a day of blogging, and it’s weird that it’s only been a few days and I feel terrible that I didn’t make it. I’d like to say that something exciting happened and therefore I was unable to blog – like maybe I was kidnapped and had to fight my way out and then save the princess, but that’s not it at all. I just had a super busy day after a late night and I was exhausted. Like face-plant-into-the-pillow-at-the-first-possible-moment exhausted. It wasn’t even that exciting of a day. I went out of town to do some shopping, which is a terrible thing because then I spend money, as soon as I got back into town, I went to my cousin’s playoff lacrosse game, which I was late to, and then to his house for dinner afterwards. Like I said, nothing super interesting, although I do enjoy family time, but it was just go, go, go all day. I was grateful that today was a very casual day. I slept until 11am with some crazy dreams that I will get to in a minute, and didn’t even leave the house if you don’t count going into the yard. It was definitely the type of low key day that I needed before I start my new “work” schedule. I’ve been joking that I need to make a time sheet and pay myself an hourly rate to motivate myself, but somehow I don’t think that will work.

Tomorrow is the day that I’m supposed to start my new routine to get stuff done, but we’ll see if it actually happens. I can’t remember exactly what time I’ve penciled in to get up at, but I’m pretty sure it’s some godawful time like 6am. Now, when I was working a real job, I would frequently have to be up before then to get to work on time, but it’s a lot harder to motivate yourself when there is no real repercussion for not getting up and getting going. Plus I’ve always been really bad at the reward system thing, you know, where you set a reward for doing x amount of work or whatnot? I usually just rationalize that I can avoid doing the work and just get the reward immediately. The only time I can remember being successful was during Nanowrimo one year. My reward for hitting the word count was a Nintendo 3DS. I even bought it beforehand, because I knew I would finish, but I made myself wait until I hit the 50k words. I did, about a week early, and then I got to play my 3DS. Honestly, though, that’s the only time I can remember this system actually working. In university I was able to incentivize myself with stickers, so that could actually be an option, I would write down every little thing that I had to do in an agenda, and when I completed it, I would put a sticker over it. This has some potential, and maybe when I hit a certain number of stickers I can trade them in for a prize. Am I a child? Yes, yes I am.

Speaking of, I definitely had the weirdest dreams last night. I was in a city, maybe Vancouver, when Godzilla showed up. Naturally, everyone started to evacuate. I ended up on Vancouver Island and then the earthquakes started. I’m not sure if they were related to Godzilla or if maybe my dreams just collided together. All I knew was that I had to get out of any cities with tall buildings, so I headed to the north end of the island where my grandparents live, because there’s nothing tall there. But, we also had to worry about tsunamis, so after packing stuff up, I went in search of a hill. I felt pretty confident in my ability to survive, which is more than I am say for my thoughts in real life. Is it weird that I’m always wondering what my best course of action is in a natural disaster? Maybe not when I live on a fault line. I definitely have to look at fault lines in my story world. My brother keeps mentioning how important they are, and I agree, mainly from a topography point of view, but I can work with earthquakes, too… interesting.

Anyway, I’d best be signing off for the night. Something about getting up early in the morning.


The Best Laid Plans…

Okay, I’m not going to lie. The plans were not well laid at all. I set an alarm for 7:30 this morning, and I think that’s about a far as I got. There were vague ideas of what to do today, including making a daily schedule, but that was about it. You might be able to guess by now that I didn’t get up when my alarm went off. I turned it off, though I barely have a recollection of doing so, and woke up sometime around 11:00am. Oops. At that point, I was pretty sure my day was going no where fast, and so I embraced it. I didn’t even claw my way out of bed until well after noon. I mean, if the ship is going down, I might as well have a good time along the way.

When I finally decided to start moving, I jumped into the shower and managed to lose a contact somewhere between rinse and lather. Nothing light being a cyclops while trying to shave. But hey, I like living life on the edge.

I guess today was a bit of a house keeping day for me. I did some chores, ate some food, and just puttered around. I must have needed it, because it doesn’t feel like a lost day to me. I feel like I was productive, though not necessarily in the direction I was hoping to go. My new plan is to have my daily tasks figured out and planned out by the end of Friday, with the intentions of starting my new schedule on Monday. I’ve written down all the things I think I want to include in a day, though I’m sure I’ll find more as I go along, and that’s a good start. I also know that I want to try to be done most of my work by 4pm every day, so that’s something that I can plan around. I’m not against working later in the evening, like maybe a few hours from 8-10pm, but I want to get most of my work done while everyone I know is at work. I also plan on including a siesta whenever I need one. With those things sorted, I think I’m well on my way to getting back on the right track. I still need to find a creative place to actually write, though, and I feel like that might be the hardest part of all. If it’s somewhere I have to travel to, I’ll also have to account for travel time and potentially hours of operation. I do miss the city and the 24 hour coffee shops, that’s for sure. But I’ll make it work, I’m sure.

I don’t have much planned for the rest of the day (not that I really had anything planned at all), so I’ll just slowly pluck away at making a schedule, and further sorting things out, I guess. Maybe tomorrow I’ll get up early, but realistically, I doubt it.

The Dream

“Sometimes life is about risking everything for a dream that no one but you can see.”

I came across this quote some time ago. I’m not sure who said it or really how I to find it, but it resonated with me. Maybe because I have this crazy dream where I am going to become a published author and share my little world with everyone. But it’s scary as hell. Because first, one must pull a story from the depths of one’s soul, and secondly, because every force in the world seems to be working against following that dream and people can’t seem to understand why you would want to quit your well paying job to pursue this. I mean, I get it. I wonder myself. But I did it. And I’m still not sure if I’m better off. If nothing else, I’m committed, or should be.