I can’t believe I missed two blog posts in a row! This is terrible! Honestly, there was a time in my blogging life when I would have freaked out about blogging every day. I would get stressed out and would be walking down random streets trying to connect to any free wifi signals so that I could post a couple stupid sentences for that day, even though I didn’t have much to say. I still don’t have much to say, but I no longer freak out about missing a blog post. I didn’t realized I missed two though, and I can tell you what happened. On Monday, I was an idiot and accidentally checked off “Blog” in my agenda for Tuesday. I figured I would remember that I hadn’t blogged. Turns out I didn’t. Oops. My bad. And then yesterday I just straight up forgot. I wish I could say that it’s because I’ve been having super productive days and so I haven’t had time to blog, but that’s not the case. If anything, I’m more likely to remember on my more productive days because I’m always on my computer and/or looking at my agenda.
I’m here, now, though, and maybe I’ll be able to get in two blog posts today. We’ll see, though. I’m currently set up at the dining room table. It’s almost 1pm and I’m still in my PJs, and pretty okay about that. I also have apple chips cooking in the oven and I’m in the process of baking bread. Well, in the prep stages of that. I have about two and a half hours to go before it’s ready to go in the oven. I feel like I’m sounding a bit like a baking blogger right now, but I will assure you that that is not the case. Especially because I just looked up from my computer and had to run across the kitchen to deal with my yeast starter that was overflowing from its measuring cup and spewing out over the counter. It’s contained now and mixed in with the other starter ingredients, but boy did that give me a bit of a heart attack that I didn’t need to have.
Totally unrelated, but I think I am still struggling with this work-life balance thing. Even though the work has changed, I’m still not quite there. I think the problem is that I can do my work whenever and from wherever, which, instead of meaning that I’m super productive, means that I put it off and wind up writing into the wee hours of the morning. I don’t think I’ve climbed into bed earlier than 3am for the last week. That’s bad. Well, I really enjoy writing that late at night, the problem is that I also want to get some writing done during the day. My family members that I live with tend to come home around 4:30pm every day. I prefer to have all my writing and chores for the day done by that time so that I can socialize. However, when I stay up until 3am, I usually want to sleep until 11am. That means I only have five hours to finish everything I want to accomplish. On days when I only have writing planned, this normally isn’t a problem, but on days when I have to do laundry, or want to bake, it doesn’t generally work out. I’ll get there though, I’m sure of it. It’s just a matter of how, and if I have to pull an all nighter in an effort to shift my sleep schedule back a bit. I don’t even know if that would work, though, because my insomnia is pretty powerful when it comes to keeping me up at night. Yes, I am working late at night, but also my insomnia is like “Hey! Think about this! What about that? If you close your eyes… spiders! Ha! Now you have to open them up again because you’re freaked out. Wow… why aren’t you asleep yet.” Yeah, it’s fun.
But now it’s time to go punch some bread dough and try to be uber productive.