I touched on this a bit at the end of the last blog post, but I think everything was a little muddled because my brain certainly was. I’m happy to report that I skipped work today, slept a lot, and am feeling quite a bit better. I’m not sure if I was/am coming down with a cold, but it may have just been that I was tired. I haven’t been sleeping the greatest, and having a real job means that I sometimes need to be places at specific times. Missing today was okay, because I can just do what I didn’t do today, tomorrow. That’s the nice thing about my fairly casual job.
That being said, it would be so nice to just write every day. I’ve always struggled in the past, thinking that I wouldn’t have the motivation to do so, but I think, over the past years of so, I’ve proved to myself that I could. I have set myself goals, entirely independent of other people, and for the most part, I’ve managed to hit them. Plus, as I’ve mentioned before I’ve managed to find ways to keep myself productive every day. Granted, it doesn’t always work. There are certainly times where I just don’t do anything, but I think they are few and far between. And, if I really want to get something done, I can usually convince myself to do it.
As I do work, though, I find that I have to make sacrifices. One of those big sacrifices is being social, another one is sleep. The being social isn’t a huge deal, because when I moved, I left all my friends behind. Or at least most of them. So it’s not like there’s really a ton of times when I’m being invited out and can’t go. That being said, if I didn’t have a real job, I could go and visit/annoy friends more regularly, without having to worry about getting back to my job. I could just bring my job with me, though I might struggle to stay on task if I were exploring somewhere new.
The sleep thing is something I’ll likely always be sacrificing. I’m a fan of working well into the night and then sleeping in, so I may just be stuck with that forever. However, if I didn’t have to be awake at a certain time to go to work, then it really wouldn’t matter how late I stayed up. Definitely appealing.
However, I think the most exciting thing about the possibility of being able to quit my real job and write full time is actually writing full time. I could live in my world on a daily basis and spend my time creating everything that I could ever want to. That is the dream, but more so, the goal.